This is probably the worst nightmare yet, spanning over the last few days. I gave in to a cycle of hatred and ended up hurting my mum so much till she wouldn't stop crying. And all I wanted to do was to hurt her more.
I'm shocked how such unthinkably cruel thoughts lurk within my sub-conscious.
Even though it was merely a nightmare, even though the despair was illusionary, it was overwhelming enough to keep me paralysed in grief for a while. Only after the tears dried, did I take a deep breath and arose from bed.
Emotionally taxing for no apparent reason from the start of today, what a morning.
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