In The Shower

It's unfortunate how we take simple yet meaningful things for granted. Like lazing around on a Saturday afternoon, hanging out with friends till late, or watching a good movie that actually gave you some insight. Why do we do those things? Fun, fun, fun. Happiness seems to be like a fashion that never goes out of trend. Friends tell each other that they shouldn't do this, or should do that. 'Oh well. As long as they're happy.'

As long as it makes you happy? Is that really all that there is to it?

I normally take longer than usual to shower than most It's is just a moment of meditation and prayer for me. It's amazing. How it amplifies your excitement, intensifies your fear, deepens your sadness and elevates your bliss a few more levels.

I reflect a lot when I'm in the shower. It's my personal time of getting in touch with myself, or who at least try to remember the person I'm meant to be. Today I reflected upon the graduation of my friends. I wondered how they'd be in a few years time. That feeling of meeting up in the future to talk about the past. I realised there were people I'd miss and people I wouldn't miss. It wasn't that some meant more to me than others. It's just that people like my a couple of high school friends, or university friends like Roy, Ibsen and Stefenie would always keep in contact so it didn't matter that much. those people are the kind you can meet up after a couple of years and chat like it was just yesterday. As fond as I am of her, deep inside I accept the painful truth that people like her will only retain memories of me, leaving everything else behind.

Maybe that's why I miss friends like those so much. Because when you say goodbye, it really is goodbye. I know I won't see them again.